For the past few weeks, I have been (semi-forcing) my personal concentrations and devotions on the positive possibilities that await: in my future, in situations that I wish would resolve themselves, in relationships, and so on, so on.
This new mindset has created a much different platform on which to pray, and ultimately, to focus upon. I am slowly becoming so much less of a worry wart, and so much more of an optimist.
In all honesty, I have stretched the limitations of this kind of devotional thinking, and prayer, and asking. I decided I would choose the most cumbersome thing that floats in the back alleys of my mind and ask my Maker to "fix" the situation. To work through me, if you will. (Perhaps there is spiritual maturity in asking to be worked through, not worked for?)
Last night, in the form of a phone call with a nice gentleman who fast became my angel for the evening, my prayer, my ultimate asking of guidance and help and assistance in carrying this burden, was answered.
I am still amazed.
How do these things happen, you ask?
I am completely certain in the following facets of spirituality:
a) pure, total and unabiding trust
b) belief that it absolutely will be taken care of - sans a worrying heart
c) constant optimism (see b)
So...this day has been spent with a very free feeling inside me - I have felt since I woke up to huddle next to the woodstove and dress my wee one for school on this rainy day, on through my daily household duties and work here, and posting pictures and such - that I have allowed a new kind of strength to take hold of my emotions, my mind and my heart. I feel like a changed woman!
I was listening to NPR this a.m., and there was a gentleman quoting Hemingway - from A Farewell to Arms - and it stuck in my head all day. It goes right along with the mindset this day:
"The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places."
I agree, whole-heartedly.
I am posting all new pretties for purchase - after a few kind and much-needed pressing emails from new customers - on my site. It seems there is confusion as to why I post some on etsy, some on my site, some here and some there....well - there is no answer except that I often sit down to post and then resolve into other momma and housewifey- things (: I do appreciate the nudgings though, keeps me in better form and I hope: You in better pretties!
p.s.s. I do have a few openings left through December for home and brochure parties - please do email me at my new addy: email@example.com if you are interested in hosting! Think: Lots of free pretties for you, and maybe a few to gift for the holidays too!