awww, patience. my favorite, always-needing-to-be-attended-to glitch in my personality. I mean, there are several...but patience. It's always hovering about me, the lesson of it all.
I went on the most hilarious and simply entertaining roadtrip of my life this past weekend, with someone who has an uber amount of the art of patience. To me, that's exactly what it is...an art. I started the trip in a semi-bad grump; I was not feeling that great. I was annoyed with life's little setbacks, etc. I had so much time to think on this trip that I came to a conclusion I wanted to share.
Long story short, on the leg home of this journey, with the sun streaming in and sitting in a nice, comfortable silence while watching mile markers fly by, I heard a voice say, "Listen."
Very simply put...listen. I just kept hearing that word over and over, and it slowly kind of washed my worry/worries away. Listen. Listen. Listen.
Listening is not an easy thing to do. For those of us blessed with the type-A personality, listening is in fact, a feat not to be taken lightly. Hush. Don't give your opinion. Don't talk...just listen.
So, I did listen...at first, all I heard were the tires on the highway. Then I heard the radio...and then the voice again. Listen.
Sometimes, I want to hear answers. Now. I want to know what to do, if I should give up on something, when to say when, how hard to push...how rigid to be, when is it going to get easier? When will I have learned all of these little lessons?
That day on the road I just heard...be patient. Learn the lessons, be as welcoming to the bumps and bruises as you are to the joys and triumphs. The downfalls provide an opportunity for an uphill journey, which is always prolific. But I'm beginning to see, perhaps more now as I make my march towards the big 3-0, that the lessons are there for each and everyone of us, to learn, to share and thus, perhaps to make sense of this life.
I want to be still and enjoy that this year. I want to welcome my life's events as they come, graciously, without grudge and gloominess. I have to embrace it all, because I'm blessed with the opportunity to just live!
Of course, it says in the Bible that Christians should be patient. In Romans:
Rom 5:3, And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint...
Geesh. It couldn't get much more clearer than that. If we also are thankful for our hardships - really, no matter how hard they are - then we gain the wonderful attribute of perserverance. And then with that, comes character...and character, our hope. Hope, tied to all of these things! And to know that with that process, should we heed it with open arms and adjust as gracefully as possible, we will not be let down. We won't be disappointed by that process. What a promise!
So, another resolution, or I guess maybe a revelation, for me. I will listen.